My life's journey

                      My Life’s Journey

This is the story of the journey of my life. Travel can be hard work. So much to see. So little time. So many missed connections. So much lost luggage. But every stop, every detour, every challenge along the way provides a lesson to be learned. Travelling mercies to us all. Let me take you on a quick tour of my life so far.
            I come from a simple middle class family. Both my parents are working and I grew up in Coimbatore, Tamil Nadu. Throughout my childhood, I remember the shortage of money being a constant theme in the house. We had enough to run the kitchen and pay for utilities but little to built assets on or make major expenses. We rarely ate out in restaurants and when we did, we did so with caution, figuring out the cheapest and most filling items on the menu. Funnily enough, we never felt deprived. I took the shortage of money as an essential factor of life. In a country like India, we were still better off than millions. All I wanted was a decent job when I grew up and enough money so that it wasn’t a constant problem. I liked science, mathematics subjects and my aim is so big, I want to a scientist but I can’t because of I’m middle class family and was told engineers get guaranteed jobs. I also liked playing chess and drawing. In my school days I had crush starting around 7th / 8th grade, the girl sat in my side honors science class. I thought she was amazing because she got high mark in science and her smile is so awesome and interesting.
           One day I took her pencils and pens without knowing her. One day she gave me her food that day I m feeling so amazing. I stammered and felt embarrassed and didn’t know what to say. For the first time in my life I was absolutely never speechless and then I knew what had happened. I had no idea I was starting to crush on her. After I completed my schooling and she moved away. I never told about how I felt, brushes tears what am I kidding myself? I will never like anyone like that again. I joined engineering college. I completed my first year in my college. Someone told me she had a boy friend and my heart is broken suddenly got tears I feeling so sad and move on to my life. I got crush on another girl. Suddenly happen in my college bus both of them are going in college bus. She is in my front seat in my college bus both of them of don’t talk each other. We are same department in our college but different section. I see her every days she also see me its happen two years. One day she came to me why are you doing like this are you mad. I suddenly shocked and she told to me she has already boy friend don’t do like this and be care full. This is the last year of my college and I forget her. I completed my degree in first class bus still I’m jobless fellow. After two months finished my college I got my first crush number from my friend.
           I started my conversation by sending message to her in whatapp just I say Hi, Hello, How are you. That was the first conversation between me and her. I thought it wouldn’t be longer. But I texted her ever day she also replying me just casual message only morning and night messages only. After one month I tell her about crush on you. She told me. Are you kidding with me?  I said I’m serious and that conversation is going long. The conversation going to call. I discussion about many thing and she also discussion about her. She talked her problems. I finally felt her and there’s this girl who went through the worst breakup of her time. She loved him a lot, and he left her, she was heartbroken. She wouldn’t eat, she was crying, laughing, just about anything because he knew her so well. That’s how much he paid attention to her. She always wanted someone like that, and was always so down. She thinks about him every day that guy can’t understand about her feelings. One day she blocked me in whatapp and I call her I asked why are you blocked me. She said some incidents. After long days my birthday was came that day she wish me. I don’t know she wish me in life time that day is my happiest day ever after she removed in block list. We both talk many things and conversations going long. The days are going I loved her so much but I don’t know. The months passed, great times, ups and downs we fight and arguments began to grow more intense. She always wants her boy friend back. We both agreed. Two weeks went by, this was the hardest, two weeks of my life, I had to call her and said I m sorry. I can’t take anymore sleepless nights. One more time she blocked me. I don’t know if I can, I just don’t want to make it hard and go into this relationship. Her boy friend told her he loved another girl. She got heartbroken. She doesn’t talk too much, doesn’t want to return my calls. And one day she came to me and said that she is sorry, she could not carry on what she doing. It would be wrong for her to be with me, when her heart is thinking her ex.i did not say anything to her, but my whole life broke apart. I don’t feel like doing anything now a days. I might smiled, but inside I was dying. I tried to be clam and understand .I still love her and I don’t know how to forget her. Loving someone does not always mean to be the owner of the person, sometimes love needs sacrifices. I really pray for her happiness but still I want her….I am feeling relieved after letting out my emotions. Okay I m done with all the boring art in writing and sorry to be pessimistic if you fell so…
         There are much more interesting things awaiting in your life. It’s never late. Life is a beautiful journey. Make sure to travel till end and make memories with your loved ones